I can see it in their eyes. The people that know our family from a distance. Neighbors or coworkers that have maybe seen a glimpse of the state of stress that our home has (frequently) been in for the past four years. I sense the judgement; how they believe that we are nuts when we say we have launched a foundation.
Their questions: Why would they commit to more? Because God has blessed us with a team of resources. Don't they need to focus on the kids that they already have? We want our kids to learn to obey God even if the world does not. What do they know about a foundation? Nothing. But we are quick learners.
I imagine that when Simon Peter threw aside his nets and gave up his life as a fisherman, the guys in the next boat raised their eyebrows. Don't misread me here. There aren't plans to quit my day job. I am just having a new appreciation for what it feels like to say "Yes!" more loudly and bolder than we ever have before. To not get too comfortable.
When I was younger, I was the kid that volunteered to host the party, make the extra posters, run for the next class office. Somewhere between there and here, I stopped saying yes to others. It was the most liberating feeling NOT to sign up to bring cupcakes or substitute for Sunday school. I know that is a bold statement but you have to understand that my saying yes was to please those around me. My identity isn't in whether the rest of the moms think I have it all together. My identity is in my maker.
Standing at the gates of Kimisagara, I could hear God shouting at me as I watched my husband hold those sweet faces in his hands and tell them that they had a heavenly father. I felt God tapping on my heart as my only daughter sobbed as she said goodbye to Rwanda. And being home to some of the most calm, RAD free days in four years just makes His plan that much more clear. Our future is with these kids.
We have some amazing, amazing team members that are doing this with us. Our family has given us their back yards, their time, and most importantly, their blessing. Those that know us well-and know that God is the creator of some of the craziest story lines-are right beside us in this. We are one blessed family to be loved like this.
There won't be a finished basement, a weekend away or a new windshield on the van. As Ryan reminded me, none of those are advancing the kingdom of God. I love it that this is the man that leads my family. And I'm not gonna lie, he's leading me where I have always hoped to be! So yes, we are saying "yes." Besides, Blake, E and Zeke reminded me tonight that if you say no to God, you may end up in the belly of a fish.